'It is true what they say - when the Universe calls, they make it a priority to help you understand the assignment clearly'
Imagine living in a dark hole most of your life. You know you don't belong there, but its the only constant reminder of unfortunate events you had to endure. That dark feeling of "believing you deserve this misfortune" is all you know to believe. You feel different inside and out - misunderstood and mistreated in so many different ways your heart and mind tells you "your very existence is the reason". How do you come back from that? how do you overcome such burdened mentality? For a long time, I fought my inner demons only to fail not just myself but everyone I loved. I knew things had to change so I made it a mission to do just that, Change.
I have always known to be from a spiritual background. Matakitetanga (Maori Seer) has run strong through my family for generations. Spirituality has never been an unfamiliar terrain to me. The connection with wairua (spirit) and Te Taiao (the environment) has always been a part of who I am as a Maori woman. The difficult part was finding myself as I navigated the waters of life. I was raised in tikanga Maori (Cultural protocols) most of my life so that became my comfort zone. But there was still something missing from my life - the desire for fulfillment, an urge to contribute and inspire others. Unknown to me, there were ways to do this outside of my cultural capacity.
Eight years ago, before I gave birth to my son, my bestfriend took me to a spiritual gathering. There were only a few woman sharing their knowledge of spiritual arts which included Tarot Reading and Mirimiri (Maori Massage). I had never received a Tarot reading before this day, nor did I have any clue of what Tarot was. As a Maori woman, wairuatanga (spirituality) is a connection that I am always open too. I was very fortunate to have received a Tarot Reading. The reading spoke of many aspects of my life, which makes a whole lot of sense now that I think about it. One message that stood out to me was that I was destined for something more - I am very gifted and needed to find a way to express my gift. Of course, at that time I wanted to believe that that was true, however the trauma and darkness kept me from believing in miracles so the first thing I did was dismiss the messages. It was clear that I had a lot of healing to do before I was truly ready.
Anyway, skip five years ahead and I still found myself trying to heal from all the trauma brought from the past. Of course, achievements were accomplished during this time however, there still remained an emptiness within. I wasn't spiritually and emotionally fulfilled.
With what ever faith I had left in me, I called to the big guy up above. Sitting outside in my backyard, hoping and praying, asking God to take away my pain and replace it with love, in desprite need of answers or tohu (universal signs). For the first time in my life, the feeling of major unconditional love surrounded me. It was an unbelievable feeling. First it felt like water was dripping over my head and then the next I knew, love was full on surrounding me. The feeling of hope and faith was greatly acknowledged. With no word of a lie guys it had felt as if though a black veil had been ripped away from my vision. The world seemed so much lighter, peaceful even. Was definitely the reassurance I was waiting for.
Each day, my faith grew stronger - so did my hope in life. The more hope I had, the less challenges there were. The more gratefulness that was acknowledged, the more blessings there were.
I continued to ask God to show me the right pathway. Then one day the number Eight started appearing dramatically more than twice a day. The number Eight would appear doubled or tripled everywhere I go. These numbers appeared for a month before I chose to do my research. The last straw was when I had a catch up with my bestfriend and there, the number 888 appeared so vividly on a cardboard box. Pulling out my phone, I know Uncle Google had some answers, so I began searching for the universal signs of seeing the number 8. Low and behold, a thing called Angel Numbers popped up. I read the message about the number and let me tell you that looking over the years past, things have definitely happened with major changes. I then became accustomed to seeing different angel numbers from 1111, 111, 222, 333, 444, 555, 1122, 1212, 1010 etc. Reading all the messages the divine had for me, I embraced it all. These Angel messages lead me to what they call a 'true purpose' which happened to be a lightworker. A lightworker is an Earth Angel who is sent to Earth to spread divine light and inspire insight to those who are needing to heal through past trauma and find their true purpose in life. I finally understood what it all meant. I was drawn to Tarot Reading as a form of spreading light. I watched so many videos of Tarot Reading and how it inspires people and leads them on a pathway to their higher purpose. I fell inlove with this art that the first deck I received was the Angel Tarot by Doreen Virtue and Radleigh Valentine which was gifted by my fiancé for christmas. I joined a Spiritual Group on Facebook to practice the art of Tarot. I found the connections with the cards were amazing and absolutely fulfilling. I started giving free readings for a couple of years before I was confident enough to want to build social media platforms. I found out what my gifts were during this period and have since embraced them and developed them. I have joined a few Biddy Tarot Seminars to help me understand Tarot more. I am glad to say that now, it brings me joy and much fulfillment to spread inspiration to others through Tarot Readings and I hope to continue this beautiful artform till my cup is full.
Things happen for a divine reason and the Divine won't give up on you until you achieve your true purpose. The divine won't give up on you ever! All you need to do is ask.
Linda Waru-Lackner (aka: White Feather Insight)
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